okay -- you are certainly an open book, Andrei -- I've probably heard of you ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯-- alas, a few pointers, although I'm sure you have learned, firstly, as an eight-year-old boy, do not keep a diary, period, let's just keep it at that - two, if you wish to keep a secret, probably best not employ the social animal commonly referred to as the female -- No, no! Bad move my friend -- okay, where are we? Oh! the boy / woman crush thing, or any other crush for that matter...hmmm...keep them quiet, else attract rival predators, then pounce like a cheetah!